Promises

I'm the reason that I missed all your calls
And I never really missed you at all
You know it's my trademark to run and hide
But I'm sorry I never told you goodbye

There are things I never said that you shouldn't know
There are times when I should have left but didn't go
It's not like I didn't think; I just didn't care
I had my reasons, but that doesn't make it fair

You said I had to cremate you with your vinyl
Despite believing that living is futile and death is final
You told me that no one but me could understand
I lay there wishing someone else was holding your hand
But not because I didn't want to be involved
Before staying with you, I had my own issues to resolve

Pen and paper may not count as a confession
But I promise that I'll try to learn this lesson
I know I let your down with my last promise, Maddy
This time I hope that you can finally be happy